| God is being mean to me |
[Sep. 11th, 2005|11:24 pm] |
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Damn, I have to find someone to work for me on October 8th. My work schedule changes and I start to work on Saturdays. Bad thing is that Brandy has a performance that day and I work...Damn. I might even beg and plead to get off that day because I want to see it so badly. For me it seems as though the weeks are going by faster and faster. Frankly I want them to go by fast, it's not that I don't like college I just...I don't know what I want. Maybe this Residency program is getting to me. I mean sometimes I want to do thing but my schedule won't let me. Now if I was a paid Firefighter I could understand...but I'm not. I know I only have myself to blame for signing up with the program, but it was cheat and I wanted some experience. Maybe I'll only go through it for a year then stop..I don't know yet it's still to early to tell. I'm just so tired all of the time, because I try to get to sleep at around 10:00 or 11:00 but th other guys don't got to sleep until an hour or two later. So as I am sleeping I am awaken by there loud talking and they turn on the lights without having any consideration that I am asleep. So the only good sleep that I get is either when I'm on duty sleeping upstairs or on the weekends. Oh well, such is life. |
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| Oh Great |
[Sep. 7th, 2005|12:52 pm] |
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| | Every Day is Exactly the Same - NIN | ] |
Wow, today has sucked so far. In my math class we had a substitute who didn't really know what he was talking about so I can't do my assignment. And in my English class we got out at 12:30 when the class should be from 12:00 to 1:30. But before we got out I got bitched at for not having a complete rough draft. So now I have to complete my rough draft and do the final paper. However I do not blame an incomplete paper on the teacher, that was my fault through and through. Now I just have really nothing to do...I might do some Haz-Mat homework later, joy oh joy. |
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| That's just great |
[Feb. 6th, 2005|10:44 am] |
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| |  pissed off | ] |
Oh this is great just fuckin great. I guess none of my friends want to hang out with me anymore, that's just fine. My mom asks me if any of my friends want to go out to eat with her and me. Well, just so happens that none of my friends want to go. Hell, I even call my girlfriend who I have been with for almost four years and she say no because she is over at Sasha's. So I'm like that's okay I'll just call my best friend he'll hang out with me. Well, I call him and he say Oh well Sasha invited me over for lunch sorry, maybe some other time. Well, I personally believe their won't be another time because ever day he's had off and I asked to hang out he's always going over to Sasha's and their not even going out anymore. They tell me their just friends, well I haven't spent time with my bestfriend outside of school for...about a month. I have just come to the conclusion that no one wants to hang out with me anymore and it's all because of Sasha. She has ruined everything I love most, she has ruined my relationship with her stupid advice and now she's taking my best friend away who I have known for six years. I feel that I am unwanted by them, so I will just stop being a nuseice of their lives. I guess I only have two friends now that I can actually trust because the others have no love for me anymore. |
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| I Am Back |
[Oct. 30th, 2004|01:32 pm] |
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My name was previously CAPN_JESUS, but now I am a changed man and have become COCKASAINS. It's a little joke that only my friends would get. Unlike my previous LJ I WILL update this one because I am a nice person and like butterflies. |
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